The Key...

Have been snacking and eating loads today, but kinda weird things. Not feeling good about it...

Fri, 24 May 2013 11:49:50 -0400

but at least I now have some anger in me to work out.

What a wonderful excuse for a good workout.

justfivemore: the biggest problem with my life right now is that i just don’t care to live it

Fri, 24 May 2013 11:23:40 -0400

justfivemore:

the biggest problem with my life right now is that i just don’t care to live it

In just over a month I'm going to Kenya...

Fri, 24 May 2013 11:22:08 -0400

and I’d give ANYTHING to be there now. Its kinda the only thing I’m holding onto at the moment. I even considered breaking up with my absolutely wonderful, loving boyfriend despite the fact that he means the world to me, because I’m sad and frustrated with life and that is not his fault. I only hate myself more for taking it out on him and feel guilty for not being motivated or happy and tired. I feel exhausted, and yes, I have been struggling to sleep and did just work two consecutive 12.5 hour shifts and have a weak gym visit after the second…but I got 9 hours sleep last night and so far have barely left my bed today except to do a little cleaning. So whats the dealio? I’m sick of this.

skinny-depression: this is beautiful sounds kinda like heaven

Fri, 24 May 2013 11:14:17 -0400

skinny-depression:

this is beautiful

sounds kinda like heaven

beyonces-butt: I hate it when you’ve been really on edge for a while and then you have a breakdown...

Fri, 24 May 2013 06:06:51 -0400

beyonces-butt:

I hate it when you’ve been really on edge for a while and then you have a breakdown over a little thing and everyone thinks that you’re getting super upset about not washing your hair

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Fri, 24 May 2013 05:35:54 -0400

67989) My smile doesn't reach my eyes anymore.

Fri, 24 May 2013 04:39:22 -0400

"We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or..."

Thu, 23 May 2013 18:01:24 -0400

“We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.”

- David Levithan , Every day (via yellowmindedgirl)

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Tue, 21 May 2013 10:41:34 -0400

I've been going back through this blog and realising I used to be so happy and excited by every little thing...

Mon, 20 May 2013 19:05:38 -0400

I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up for…

I keep having blue days at the moment.

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:18:39 -0400

I have no patience at all.

I’m indecisive.

I am angry and sad and anxious all at the same time. All the time.

I’m exhausted.

I’m scared to do the things I enjoy because what if they’re bad, or I don’t like the outcome.

I feel like I’m letting myself down a lot these days.

I’m not eating or sleeping well.

And I feel guilty about everything/ for treating everyone so badly.

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Mon, 20 May 2013 18:09:50 -0400

"You get depressed because you know that you’re not what you should be."

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:09:19 -0400

“You get depressed because you know that you’re not what you should be.”

- Marilyn Manson (via wordsthat-speak)

sleevesof-mysweater: caerula-mare: someone sent this to me so...

Mon, 20 May 2013 06:05:29 -0400

sleevesof-mysweater:

caerula-mare:

someone sent this to me so i put it into that classic tumblr poetry layout cause I thought it deserved to be shared

This actually scares me

How do some people write so beautifully?

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:52:34 -0400

How do some people write so beautifully?

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Mon, 20 May 2013 05:50:18 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 05:49:43 -0400

It makes me want to smile too.

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:48:13 -0400

It makes me want to smile too.

"You eat your goddamn Cheerios and bicker with the bitch in your head who keeps telling you you’re..."

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:43:13 -0400

“You eat your goddamn Cheerios and bicker with the bitch in your head who keeps telling you you’re fat and weak: Shut up, you say, I’m busy, leave me alone. When she leaves you alone, there’s a silence and a solitude that will take some getting used to. You will miss her sometimes.
Bear in mind she’s trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live.”

- Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (via emiliaprimavera)

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Mon, 20 May 2013 05:34:12 -0400